Jessica Simpson revealed about her alcohol abuse on Today’s show, there were two short clips shown, and the full interview won’t be aired until Wednesday. In those two clips, she talked about how she struggled.
Simpson said, “I had started a spiral, and I couldn’t catch up with myself,” and went on, I was spiraling, chasing my tail, and that was with alcohol.”
The interviewer asked her is she was worried about her alcoholism and that it was getting out of control, she replied, “Every day I would say it, and I would say it openly to everyone. ‘I know. I know, I’ll stop soon. I’ll cut back,’
Simpson further explained, “For me to cut back like I’m an all or nothing girl, and so I didn’t know it was a problem until it was.”
One of the lowest points of this abuse was in 2017, it was Halloween, and she started drinking early in the morning, at 7:30. Her husband, Eric Johnson, the father smelt her vodka breath while attending the school assembly for her child, Maxwell.
Later that day, she was “ashamed to say” that she didn’t know who helped the kids into their costumes. “I was terrified of letting them see me in that shape,” She continued, “I am ashamed to say that I don’t know who got them into their costumes that night.”
She went to bed with Ambien and slept it, and she was scared and “afraid” that she failed on parenting. “I slept in, afraid to see them, afraid I had failed them. I hid until they left, then drank,” she added.
She also opened up to her friends about her problem “I completely didn’t recognize myself. I always had a glitter cup. It was always filled to the rim with alcohol,” Simpson exclaimed, “I just realized that I had to surrender. It was time. I had to give it up and I was ready. I’m not going to miss another day, and I’m not going to miss another Halloween, I’m not going to miss another Christmas, I’m going to be present.”
She realized that her choices weren’t healthy and that she needed help. “Giving up alcohol was easy. I was mad at that bottle. At how it allowed me to stay complacent and numb.”
She started going to therapy sessions two times a week and got the support from her family and health doctors “With work, I allowed myself to feel the traumas I’d been through.”
She said she was sober since then after that and calls it a “continual gift”.
Simpson reflected, “It’s been a long hard deep emotional journey, one that I’ve come through the other side with pure happiness and fulfillment and acceptance of myself. I’ve used my pain and turned it into something that can be beautiful and hopefully inspiring to people.”
This loving mother now has so much to be grateful for, “There’s no better gift. There’s no better gift I can give my kids, there’s no better gift I can give my husband. More importantly, there’s no better gift I can give myself.”
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